Wednesday, July 3, 2013 @4:56 AM
Hi guys,
Today I felt really down. I know I did something that really hurt my love feeling.
This message is for my love :
Sayang, I know that I did a lot of mistakes. It is my fault. I know I have change. I can feel that you have someone else behind my back. I really trust you. I know for the past few days we have quarrel. This is all my fault. I know I did not comfort you well, I do not understand you, you feel that I do not love you. I also know that you will confide to someone else. I know that I am still young unlike you. I am not perfect.I rase macaam hati is with someone else but not with me. I really trust you. But do you trust me? I am trying to change. Cuma Allah je tahu betapa susahnya I kena lalui semuer ni sendiri. Memang betul I ade my saudare with me. But tak samer biler I dengan u. I tahu memang I salah. Semua ni salah I. Tapi u have been giving me the cold shoulder. memang u tak sedar. Tapi orang nampak. People are telling me that u change when u are with me and the juniors. I am sorry for telling all this. I really love u dear. I want u.
Love, Ika
Sunday, June 30, 2013 @5:19 PM
Hi guys,
guys what finally today has arrived. The day the I have been waiting for. Get to spend time with my love. I know that I cant spend much time with you. I hope you understand why love. I know you must be thinking that I might be having someone else behind ur back. I am not like ur previous ex's who betray u behind ur back. I love for who u r. If someone wants to have u. Over my dead body. I really love u. Maybe u are asking y I am behaving in a weird way. I do not know why I am behaving like this. I feel stress,sad and happy suddenly. It is me now. The 'sudden me'. I can sense that someone is trying to steal u away from me. But to me if there is mutual understanding and love is still there. There will not be any problem insyallah.
Okay guys I got to go. I will write in soon.
Love,
Ika
Friday, June 28, 2013 @5:12 AM
Hi guys,
You know what I think my life is getting sucks. After one another of problems happens. I feel as though it is useless for me to live. But I know I have to suffer now and I will succeed in the future. Maybe this is fate. I really feel that my love ones has changed drastically. I do not know why. Or maybe I am changing? maybe?
I do not know. My plan today was to go out but since I do not have maid anymore so I have to stay at home and be independent to do the household chores and cook sometimes. Whereas I am not feeling that well. So i guess home is the best place for me. Life is never beautiful. Life is full of ups and downs. I do not know why but I felt hurt for the past few days suddenly. My loved ones is treating me differently. Okay guys until here I am going to write today.
I need to go.
Bye..
Love,
Ika
Thursday, June 27, 2013 @9:37 AM
Hi guys,
Today I felt lonely. I do not know why out of a sudden. My emotional is unstable. Since I came back from school. I do not know why. I felt sick I do not know why suddenly. I know whatever happens it seems to be all my fault. Suddenly I felt like this. Whenever I'm in pain I will feel like this. I feel as though my life is getting shorter and shorter. Maybe all this is fate. I know my love ones does not realize to my changes. Okay guys enough of my life today. So today my plans was go to school took cab with my distance cousin and settle some equipment then I went to meet my aunt,uncle,granny and younger sis at Expo as we went for a fair at Expo. My relationship with my guy is fine. I think he did not realize the changes in me. ( maybe he realize maybe not). Haiss.. I feel a burden to him sometimes. I kept telling him my problems but he is really a nice guy eventhough he has change after he enter to a new environment. I do not deny the fact that people change after they enter into a new environment. Everybody change is either you change for a better or for the worse. Well.. Okay guys I know it is already late. But I cant sleep early the past few nights. I also do not know the reason why. I will keep myself occupied with Chinese dramas and movies.
Okay guys I got to go.. I will write in soon.
Bye .. Bye...
Love,
Ika
Wednesday, June 26, 2013 @12:54 AM
Hi people,
I know right it has been a long time since I blog. Well, now my life is getting even more tougher with no maid and I have to do things on my own. Now my life is much more better as I have found my dream guy. He is a nice guy,caring,understanding. I hope and I pray hard that he will be mine soon. In a relationship is not easy. There will always be ups and downs. And guess what remember my last few post I wrote about a guy that I like. Guess what he is a coward guy who will not stand up for his own and his love ones. Thank god I meet my guy. I have been with my guy for 1 year. Alot of obstacles that we have to went through. I hope he will be my life partner. About school..Hmmmmm... I have been concentrating more on my CCA than my studies. I hope that I will graduate next year with a cert. Pray for me guys. Now I am having my school holidays I have a lot of things to settle in terms of school work,housework and many more. I have been thinking alot for the past few days. I feel so stressed and depressed. I do not know why. This is a test from God. That is what I kept saying. Next week I am having my CCA camp. I hope everything will go smoothly. Guess what guys, slowly I am learning to be independent. I have a position in my CCA currently. Alhamdulilah. I am happy. I know also I have to be discipline and know how to divide my time well. ( well,easy to say then done ikr) hahaha... Okay guys.. I have a confession to make. I really love my current guy and he is my one and only insyallah. I just hope that my ex will continue to find someone that he loves in his life. Let him be. Maybe we will remain as friends ( something that is impossible). Okay people got to go.
I will write in soon.
Bye peeps,
Love,Ika
Sunday, March 11, 2012 @10:11 PM
I do not feel like talking to anyone at all now. I am just not in the right mood to talk to anyone I prefer to keep quite then talking rubbish. I am just tired of one prob after another. How I wish someone understands me like how my God understand which I know nobody could understand me like that. School was okay as per normal. Sometimes people does nt know if we are irritated or not? They will just say that will burt someone's feelings. I am just tired to entertain those nonsense anymore. Last and for all. No more nonsense. We are big enough to think and solve our own prob. But some people just do nt understand. I just do nt understand people nowadays. Haish..
Monday, February 27, 2012 @10:31 PM
Guess what he still continue that attitude of his towards me. Although he is my friend but he is my close friend since i start my school. I became mood out and did nt talk much. I did ask him what happen to him. But it seems that he is ignoring me as if i am invisible. I just miss those moments where we met before class starts and go to school together. He look at me in class but i does nt understand what does it mean. I admit that i starts to like him. But i do not understand the situation now. We met at the lift lobby but he does nt care abt me. I just hope that nothing is going to happen to our friendship. The situation now is very complicated. He just change overnight.
